Tangerine's Journery

I've just come back from dinner with a very old friend of mine that I havn't seen for a very long time.

It was so good and felt so good giving her the journey of Tangerine, and it made me think that maybe it was a good time to reflect on why I set up Tangerine with Gordon.

I suppose it makes sense to go right back, after I walked out on Jacques with R13.00 in my pocket, I was at the lowest of lowest, personally I never though I had the strength to make it through the next hour never mind the next day. But I had to think of my daughter and knowing how unsettled this must have made her, internally made it all worse.

But as they say the show must go on, one hour became one day, became one month, became two years and here we are now.

I will never forget the pain of walking away, I will never forget the pain of realising how much hurt he put onto my daughter, I will never forget the internal humilation of getting to the lowest possible place within yourself.

I don't use these memories to drive me, I think that would drive me crazy, I use these memories as lesson, lessons never to be learnt again. Lessons that have opened up my world to looking for only positive initatives and changes that I can bring upon myself and other.

Yes Tangerine's journey has been an intense one, but the journey has been a positive one, each day I meet or bump into people who just reiterate this.